Chapter 1 ¶Her Vow¶

"Ocean is strong powerOcean is our lifeIf you won't be able toSurvive against its waveYou die"- Ashma Rauniyar* * * * * * * *¶Aiyla PoV¶The above defines my story so much, "Ocean is strong power, ocean is our life" wow I simply love this quote.My life was like a deep ocean itself filled with so many wounds, pain and secrets. My life is just like this Ocean strong and determined cause even after suffering so much of trauma since childhood I knew I had to somehow survive against its strong wave, if I didn't then I would have drown in that deep hollow of sorrow.Like ocean I knew I had to make myself strong and fight against the wave of so called life. I was destined to go through all this pain and suffering and nobody could win against the decided destiny.You have to go to thorough all the hurdles that fate has written, I guess I was just unlucky from the birth that I had to go through all this traumatic stages to make myself strong and determined.Maybe it was a test from above that I had to go through and make it out safely. Many nights I cried myself to sleep cursing my ill-fated destiny and begging God to end my life, begging to end all my suffering. I was tired of living a life like this where there was no happiness.What was the use of living a life like this where you have to beg to be loved and cared! I fought with everyone for my rights, I fought for myself to survive, I fought myself to stay strong... number of times I broke down and gave up in living a sorrowful life.Number of times I went to the dark path of hell hole from where once you enter it's hard to come out but I did...I did survived and chose the right path for myself.Number of times I ran....ran away from the so called life and home but eventually I made it back...back to fight against the time and destiny.I use to hate people criticising me and looking at me like I'm some kind of dirt or with pity in their eyes. I hated the way people would say I'm worthless and I hated the way I have been treated all my life.I have cried all my life..cried with so much pain and hatred for the so called loved ones that made my life a living hell.I cried and cried all my life for my broken heart and shattered life.. for my pain and sufferings.For the loved one whom I lost.. for the loved ones who turned their back on me.For every one making me think I'm worthless, for every abuse I went through. I deserved to be loved but I never got that love. My family was the one who broke my trust! My family was the one who kept on breaking me until I turned into a shell...a stone hearted girl.I vowed to never be hurt cause of my family again.