Chapter 1 - The slap

"Dad, please! Let me explain.." I'm crying while begging in front of my family.I am now on my knees crying, begging them to listen to my explanation even now.*BUCK!*My dad gave me another hard slap."You have given this family nothing but shame!" dad shouted while poking me.Why don't they want to listen to me!!! It's always like this! It's boring! It's annoying! I am tired!!"Dad please―""Shut up Ceah! That's disgusting! If you hadn't hurt your Irish sister, we wouldn't have come to this!" Mom shouted. I just closed my eyes because it hurts so much!It's like stabbing me in the heart over and over again!Irish again! Purely Irish! Only the very lying Irish are always nice! Good! Always her! She's a liar but she's still the one they always believe and then me? even if I explain you don't listen!"Mom, she's lying!" I shouted while pointing my finger at Irish that is standing on the side while me? Here I am! Kneeling."I'm not hurting her, mom, dad..." I said, sobbing."I never hurt her! Brother... I never hurt her―""cut it off Ceah! We all know what your attitude is! You're so jealous and jealous! You're jealous of me so you want to hurt and discredit me―" I didn't finish what Irish was saying because all the lies were coming out its crater!"I'm the one you're hurting and defaming Irish! You're the one who's yelling―"*BUCK!*Mom hit my other cheek so I just held my red cheek because it was already swollen... But I don't feel any pain from it. Because my chest hurts the most than my cheeks."Don't you ever dare shout at your sister!" Mom shouted angrily.I stood up from my knees. I'm tired! Tired!"Can you listen to me?!" I shouted and looked at them all one by one."Can you, even just now, understand and have mercy on me!" I shouted with all my might."We don't wanna hear your explanation 'cuz you're a liar!" Brother Cloud loudly shouted at me."You're so immature Ceah! You've done nothing but draw attention... You're still able to hurt Irish." brother Clide also shouted angrily and emphatically."Why? Didn't you even once listen to my explanation?! Didn't you even once let me explain?! Didn't you even once understand me?! Didn't you?! Because you don't care about me! You don't care about how do you feel―"*KNOCK*Mommy slapped me hard again.Am I not allowed to explain?!I held my cheek again and then wiped my tears. I don't want to! I'm so tired of everything! I'm tired of fighting! I'm tired of explaining! I'm tired of defending myself! I'm tired of everything! I'm so tired."Alright!!" I shouted. "Hurt me! Hurt me all you can!!" I shouted again while wiping my tears."No more. I don't want to. I'm tired of explaining to people like you who don't care about what I feel! I'm tired of explaining my side because you're ears are all close for me! I'm tired of fighting against your hurts! I'm tired of defending myself from your tireless accusations that aren't true! So go ahead! Hurt me!!" I cried and shouted but they just didn't say a word."I'm tired..." I said gently. While crying."I'm so so tired already... that's why from now on, I'll let ya'll do whatever you wanna do to me. I won't fight anymore. I won't complain. I won't beg for your attentions. Because I'm tired of all this!" I shouted and ran upstairs then went to my room. I cry and cry until I get tired.From now on I will just let them go, I will not fight against their hurts, I will not correct their wrong judgments. I will change the old Ceah they know. 'Cuz I'm already tired of everything.》ICEAH'S P.O.V《My eyes were swollen and both my cheeks were bruised when I woke up. I took a deep breath and got up from lying down... I went in my bathroom and washed my face. I look at my reflection on a mirror. You can see the bruise and swelling of my eye, it's always like this... Nothing has changed in their treatment...I did my morning routine after I finished bathing. I put concealer on both my cheeks so that the bruise is not too obvious. It's still Monday psh. I fixed myself and went out of my room.I was walking towards the door when I saw mom, dad, brother, and Irish... I just stared coldly at them without any emotion and then passed, I don't know if they were surprised by what I asked because I used to see them they are greeted and I pay attention to them, inshort I pay attention before. But I'm tired, I'm tired of begging for her attention.Because I was not myself, I did not realize that I had arrived at the university. If I hadn't heard a whisper, I might not have noticed that I was already at school.'Hey look who's here.''b1tch'"slut"attention seeker'noticing'They murmured. Oh right? They tell me it's bad. I just let them go because I'm tired of arguing with them. I just walked straight as if I didn't hear anything. If only I wasn't tired of everything, I might have bumped into all the people who are muttering about how hard they are there, tsk."Ceahhh!""Ceahh~"my two friends shouted at the same time so I faced them with no emotion.They immediately gave me a surprised look. Is that a problem? Tsthey both came to me and checked my whole..."Ceah, is it just us or does your appearance and clothing look different now?" Lixa ask-- one of my friends.I just frowned at her,"what do you mean?" I asked confusedly"Ay woahh is that really you? Ceah? You are so simple today ahh..." said Hera, who is also my friend.I just rolled my eyes at them. Too lazy to explain."woii, answer our question Ceah!" Lixa shouted at me (short for Lixaille.)"Ice." I said coldly"Huh?" They both said in unison."Call me Ice.""woahh new look, new nick name ahh. Are you changing your life?" frowned when Hera asked. Hyst they're so talkative. I just gave them a hard time and started walking to the classroom so they both followed.BTW lemme introduce my self first.My name is Iceah Alexandra Trevor, 17 years old. I am known as a B1tch attention seeker here in the whole university, but not anymore. I'm tired of begging for their attention.My friends are;• Lixaille Faye Scott, 17 yrs old. Lixa for short.•Herabella Crys Montefalco, 17 years old. Hera for short."KRINGGGGG~"our bell rang. It means it's lunch time!My two friends and I immediately went to the cafeteria and sat in our favorite spot."Cea― este Ice..." Lixa softly called me so I looked at her and continued eating my burger."hmm?" I asked."Did something happen to you? Ah what is it hmm... You suddenly changed? Suddenly something changed in you. Is it about your family?" Lixa asked me calmly and obviously confused.I swallowed my burger in my mouth then heaved a sigh."yeah..." I said briefly and nodded once.My two friends looked at each other and looked at me as if they felt pity."Don't look at me like that. I'm tired of pitying you so that's it." I shook my head and faked a laugh.They are the only two who know what is happening in my life. They are the friends I can talk to about my pain.Hera sighed then looked directly at me."Your family is really stupid! Especially the Irish! It's so easy to tweak." Hera said in shock."yes. They are so good to touch!" Lixa also added."Is it okay?" I asked so they stopped."guyz... 'Aren't you tired? How many times have we defended ourselves. I mean, how many times have I fought just to not embarrass that girl but did anything happen? Nothing, right? It just made everyone more annoyed. because they think that I started the trouble. No one listens to my explanation..." I gave her a long explanation."so maybe it's better to let them go." I added more and drank water."so.. Does that mean we'll just let them do what they're doing?" Lixa asked."Does that also mean that you will let her hurt and embarrass you?" Hera also asked."maybe? I'm just tired of fighting with that girl. Because I'm the only one who looks bad, right? Then, let's see how they'll react if I don't do anything or retaliate against their abuses." I answered them both so they nodded.'there they are'"I wanna be yours"'just me please!!'We looked in the direction where the squealing girls were looking.I didn't make a mistake and these guys are going crazy here at the University.I used to get tickled there too, but not now. I just watched them walk into the cafeteria.Alexus is the leader of their group.Alexus Keith Alvarez, 17 years old.I have to admit that I like Alexus. All the students here know that I'm crazy about Alexus. I've been paying attention to this for a long time but it's just not with him. I chase after him but all I receive from him are hurtful words.Hanz was next to Alexus.Hanz Xander Sylverio, 17 years old.Hanz is the quietest of the group. Even though it doesn't pay attention to me either, but I realize... Who am I to pay attention to it, right?On the side of the two are brother Clide and brother Cloud. Those two are twins.Cloud Asher Trevor, 18 yrs old. He is my brother who even once did not consider me as a sister. He is our eldest.Clyde Asler Trevor, 18 yrs old. He is brother Cloud's twin. And like his twin, he doesn't care about me either."Hey Ice!" I was brought back to reality by Lixa's tap and shake."uh-huh? Why?" I asked out of my mind."Aren't they Alexus. What? You're just going to stand there?" asked Lixa."Why? What do you want me to do? Pay attention to him? to them? no thanks, I'm tired." I answered and stood up because of the noise of the people in the cafeteria. I walked out with my eyes on Alexus. I was stunned for a moment and we looked at each other. But I also avoided it and left the cafeteria completely.》LIXA P.O.V《Hera and I looked at each other at Ice's answer.He is really different now compared to the old Ceah we knew.I also noticed that in every answer she always mentioned the word 'tired.' She is very tired from everything that is happening in her life. poor Ice..."heyy come on, let's go after Ice. Just wait there." Hera snorted at me so I gave her a hard time and stood up.We will follow Ice because why should we just leave her alone?We were leaving the cafeteria when I looked at the four men that everyone was confused about. I saw Alexus stop. Alexus was looking at the cafeteria hall while his three companions were just looking at Alexus. Hmm don't tell me that he saw Ice leave?Hyst I don't care!I just continued walking and running. Because Hera is in a hurry.Isn't Alexus surprised because Ice isn't paying attention to him anymore?》ICEAH'S P.O.V《Here we are now... walking in the hallway. There was no teacher, they said there was a meeting so they allowed us to leave the classroom after all it was boring inside.I just noticed that a lot of people were looking at our behavior. Is there something wrong? Well, I'm used to those looks. Hell! I'm known here as a b1tch! Slut! Attention seekers! And trouble maker 'supposedly'! But it's just surprising because they seem to think differently of me now compared to the bad way they thought of me before...'Is that Ceah?''Isn't she beautiful without make-up?''Still, she's a b1tch.''But she's beautiful.''There seems to be something strange about her''It's a miracle she doesn't pay attention to the boys in the cafeteria noe.'I hear various whispers here. But I don't care.I didn't notice that while I was walking, I bumped into someone or someone bumped into me? I sat down on the ground."Hey, what's wrong with you?!" Hera yelled at the one who bumped into me."Are you blind?! Look where you're going!" Lixa also snorted while helping me stand up."Ahh, I'm sorry, I'm just in a hurry." I'm sorry about the girl who crashed and was a bit of a nerd."Nah, it's okay." I answered and patted myself."Okay? That's it Cea-- is this Ice?!""It's not possible! She's not looking at what she's passing by!" Hera also added.I gasped when I noticed that many people were looking at me.》CLOUD'S P.O.V《We are four friends walking here in the hallway. Nothing, we just wanted to walk because we're bored.We saw some people muttering and they seemed to be pointing at the one in the middle of the hallway. What's happening?'Woii is Ceah very different now?''Ayyts, someone bumped into Ceah in the hallway... let's see what's going on.'Passers-by whisper.My four friends and I looked at each other and none of us spoke but we all went in the direction indicated by those who were whispering here.I saw Ceah just standing up and shaking herself. Did she intend to make a scene? Maybe she just crashed."Okay? That's it Cea-- is this Ice?!" Ceah's friend Lixa asked.Why did Ceah get called Ice?"It's not possible! She doesn't look at what she's passing by!" Ceah's other friend, Hera, also added.Argh what is this scene Ceah?!I couldn't stop myself and went in the direction of Ceah. Maybe what else can it do! I noticed that my friends followed me."What's happening here?" I asked, but I was facing Ceah."What do you think?" Ceah's answer was emotionless.Wait? Why is it different? It's just surprising... before when we used to get out of a fight or a mess she made here, she used to feel sorry for us and what else was said just to make us feel sorry for her, but now?"Are you making a scene here Ceah?!" Strong question Clide―my twin."When I say NO, will you believe me? Why are you still asking if you don't believe me?" Ceah also asked me back."Well, I don't like that Ceah anymore. I prefer to be called Ice." She said and looked away from me."Don't worry, I'm fine. Go away. You're in a hurry, aren't you?" After Ceah or should I say Ice talked to the woman she bumped into and gave the book that fell to the woman.Then she was the first to leave and her friends followed.Weird..."Is that really Ceah?" Hanz asked me in disbelief."Tsk maybe that's just drama." Alexus' groin.Well, he has a point. Maybe that girl is just acting.》ICEAH'S P.O.V《"Hey Ice just wait!" The person behind me complained.Are these two following me?"You know Ice, we've always been following you! You always leave us suddenly!" Hera also complained so I slightly smirked at their looks. They are haggard."I didn't tell you to follow me, so... it's your fault." I told them that they annoyed me."Hmm what are you planning Ice?" Hera asked suddenly, making me frown."Plan? What do you mean?" I confidently asked."Because like before... you always fight when you're right and now suddenly let it go? I think you had a plan." She answered while Lixa just nodded."Well, I'm not like before. I just wanna live my life peacefully. I want to take a rest for everything." I answered.》ICEAH'S P.O.V《My friends and I were at the cafeteria today and just like before, they were whispering to me. Aren't they tired? Because my ears are so tired of hearing what they are whispering. But unfairness, there are good comments about me. But, who cares?I was just eating a burger here but I immediately stood up when I felt cold water pouring from my head.."What the f!" I screamed in shock. Hera and Lixa also stood up."Oppx sorry, I thought you're a garbage bin. But it's okay, it's just trash." My blood warmed to hear who spoke. I looked at her and saw a smile on her lips. Here we go again, the best actress. None other than Crystelle Irish Trevor. My sister slash enemy."What do you need Irish?!" Hera snorted angrily. Hera is really the combative and likes to mess with my friend, while Lixa was just talkative but also she's brave. I mean, they're both brave.I looked at Lixa for a moment and she signaled something, then we talked with our eyes. I think she gets what I want to tell her so she nodded and left."Ohh I think one of your friends got scared so she left. Poor Ceah..." Irish said flatly. I think she thought that Lixa was scared of her. as if she does."What do you want?" I coldly asked her."Nothing. I just wanted to play with you." She replied with a smile."Okay, then. You can play. You can do whatever you want. Play all by your self. I'm tired to play with you. That's why I'll let you to play alone." I said I didn't feel like it and then sat down as if nothing had happened, which annoyed my sister's impact."Don't turn your back at me. We're not done yet! Don't be rude!" She screamed in annoyance and then scolded me. I just let her and I stood up because of her twist and I also faced her because of the tightness of her hair."Irish what!" Hera shouted."Don't interfere here!" Irish troupe Trixie also shouted.It's a good thing Hera didn't get involved because she knew what I wanted and that was to just let them do what they were doing."What? You can't fight me! Are you afraid? Why don't you fight me?" Irish asked me one question after another while still holding my hair."B'cuz I'm too lazy to fight with someone like you." I firmly replied to Irish which angered her so she tightened her hold on my hair even more."A-ahhh..." I moaned softly making her grin."Fight! Fight me!" She screamed. I know that she wants me to hurt her so that people here will feel sorry for her and think that I was the one who started this mess. I didn't do anything and just let her do it because my scalp really hurt. I can go bald with this girl!"I said fight me!" She screamed and slapped me hard and because of that force she let go of me and I sat on the floor of the cafeteria. Many people are looking at us. As always, there's a lot of gossip here."I dont want to!""I dont want to!" I also said emphatically. Hera came to me and took my hand to help me stand but I ignored Hera because I was just looking at Irish who was now very annoyed because I wasn't fighting back."I said-- ahhh" Irish shouted and started slapping and tweaking herself. Tsk i think i know why she's hurting her self tss she looks like a crazy bratt now pft."Ouch!!" She pretended to moan and then sat down. When she sat down, that's when I stood up.'Hey, they're here, Cilde.''Let's go a long way, maybe we'll get hurt there'Rumors around.I braced myself when I heard Irish footsteps coming towards me."what did you do?" Alexus asked me emphatically when he got to Irish. They helped Irish to his feet then gave me evil looks."What is this scene, Ice?!" brother Clide also asked me."well, it's a scene where Irish is the hero and I'm the villain. But you know what? Irish still acted ugly." I answered politely, so all four of them were annoyed, including Irish.I looked at Irish who gave me a bad look and was still holding her cheek and slapped her. Infairness, her cheeks are really red. Irish also sobbed a little to pity the four obob men."Are you the one who started this trouble? Ice?!" Brother Cloud also shouted at me.I gave brother Cloud an emotionless look."hmm maybe? Because when you got there I was the one standing while Irish was sitting. So I think you think I'm the one hurting there. Maybe I'm the one who started it." I didn't want to say which made their foreheads frown."what the fvck Ice! Are you out of your mind?!" Hera shouted at me. He doesn't want to because I'm the type to put myself down... Hera is used to me explaining my side to the people here.I looked at him and gave a half smile then I smirked. I think he got what I meant so he sighed."Don't you know how to answer properly, Ice?!" Alexus asked me in shock.As if they will listen to my explanation. Tired of explaining even more because they have no intention of believing me."what's the matter of explaining my side if all of you will never believe me? Tsk we're just wasting each other's time." I straightened up and turned around, Hera did the same."Where is Lixa? Why did she leave?" Hera asked me in a whisper so I stopped, so did she. I faced my brother and Irish again."BTW, better luck next time with acting, Irish. Your acting style is old besides... It's unbelievable." I said and completely left.I heard the whispers but I didn't care anymore. If I used to defend my side and beg the four men to believe me, now I don't. I don't care if they believe me or not. It's tiring to explain to them that 'I didn't start it'. 'you think wrong'. 'believe me, please' it's tiring to beg them so I'll just leave it at that.I think, the 'best actress' award goes to Irish. But I'm still better at acting her.》ICEAH'S P.O.V《My two friends and I are now walking to the garden. While I was just watching Lixa's cell phone while walking..."Fight! Fight me!" Irish shouted coming from Lixa's phone."I said fight me!" Irish yelled again then slapped me and I sat on the floor."I dont want to!" I shouted too. Irish's face shows irritation and annoyance."i sai― Ahhh" this is the scene where Irish slaps and tweaks herself."pfft" I couldn't stop myself from laughing while watching that.yeahh Lixa videotaped the scene earlier so she left. Nothing, I just wanted to watch Irish hurting herself just to get the attention of others. I think, Irish is the real attention seeker."ohh are you laughing there? You have a problem?" Hera asked me noticing my laughter."What's up Hera. Of course she's laughing at the video she's watching HAHA I took it..." Lixa was proud."Ahh, why did you suddenly disappear earlier?" Hera asked Lixa."yeahh... I videoed that until the end HAHA it was beautiful when you walked out!" Lixa answered with a laugh.I turned off Lixa's phone and gave it to her."Forward me that video." I said smiling to Lixa."sure." she answered with a smile."aAaaaAahhhHhh" I couldn't help but shout when I bumped into someone behind me. Because I was facing Lixa and I was walking backwards so I'm sure I was the one who crashed because I wasn't looking at what I was going through."ayyy sh*t! I'm sorry..." I blurted out an apology. She is a woman.I turned to face her and my eyes widened when I saw that she was holding more paint and oh m.g huhu I think paint was put on my clothes."oh my gosh!" Lixa was shocked"what the heck?!" Hera said as well.The woman took down the paint she was holding then took a towel from her pocket and wiped the side of my clothes."sorry, sorry, really sorry... I didn't mean it." said the woman in a panic."ahh nah, i-its okay..." I answered and I moved away from the girl a bit. Then I looked at my clothes and saw the amount of paint spilled on the side of my clothes. It's a good thing that I'm not wearing a uniform today, but my uniform is the one with the stain today."I'm really sorry..." the woman repeated.Well, the way to the garden is close to the art building, so we can actually pass by it. But I didn't expect that someone was painting the wall of that building. But why is she the only one painting? Where are your classmates or friends?"It's okay. It's my fault, not yours." I answered but the woman's face still showed concern."are you sure?""are you sure?" her assurance."really? You're okay? With that look Ice?!" Hera is very over acting. It's like she wants trouble WHAHAHA well, she's sorry because I'm tired of making trouble right now."You look like a tank now Ice pft" Lixa stopped laughing."I'm really sorry pftt... Ahm just change your clothes. The paint on your clothes is ugly. It's not good pft." the woman also stopped laughing. I noticed they were laughing at me so I thought of something silly. I don't know but this girl seems to be at ease."Ahhm, do you have extra clothes?" I asked the woman. I thought something silly."yeahh. Why?" she asked me again.I turned to face Hera."do you have extra clothes?" I asked too."there is, why?" Hera also asked me back. But I ignored it and looked at Lixa as well."do you have extra clothes too?" I asked again, which surprised her."there is... Why? Will you borrow it?" she asked me directly."ahhmm not really..." I answered and simply approached the paint that was at the woman's feet."because... I have a painting..." I hung it up to them and their eyes widened when I picked up the one color of paint that was on the chin. The paint I took is ice-colored."woii d-dont tell me..." Lixa said nervously and without finishing."Then I'll put it on you!" I shouted and sprayed the three of them with yellow paint."Wahh, it's really bad to retaliate!" screamed the woman who put paint on my clothes. But she's not annoyed, it's obvious from the tone of her voice that she's also enjoying it."huyy Ice that's right! We're not a coloring book wahhhh!" Hera also shouted but I didn't care. I just laughed until they took their own paint which made my eyes go round."of course we will retaliate too!!" they shouted at the same time!"no! I'm going to stop― ahhh" I shouted as they really splashed paint.We are all throwing paint HAHA even the girl we don't know is with us WHAHAHA.Everywhere we go we run. Our laughter also got louder. They are fun to be with, but the one we don't know yet. We don't care about what's around us. The only important thing is that the four of us are having fun."weyyyytttt!" Lixa shouted. We stopped running and put our hands on our knees because we were out of breath from running."just soooooooood!" The girl with us gasped as well."Why are we running?" Hera also asked."Well, because you're throwing paint!" I shouted."Who started it?!" they asked at the same time."ahhh ehh I..." I answered shyly causing us all to laugh.》ICEAH'S P.O.V《"This must be it! Because she was the one who put paint on me first!" I said and pointed to the woman."Was it me? I didn't mean it ahh" she defended. We're still here in the... Hallway right? HAHA we reached the hallway and ran while our whole body was full of paint.."Hey, nothing is accidental now." I said and looked at the woman then I grinned."attack!!" I shouted with all my might, then we took the paints from below us and then laughingly poured them on the woman while the woman was also laughing and the three of us tried to throw paint at them. Starting from now on, I consider the girl a friend... Because she is going along with us on our trip and obviously doesn't want to be spoiled either WHAHAHA.》ALEXUS' P.O.V《My troops and I are walking and we are now in the hallway. I noticed that there were a lot of people whispering so I was surprised and I looked at my colleagues who were also wondering."attack!!" shouted a woman with a familiar voice... I think, it was Ceah?"That's Ice." Cloud said."Come on, let's see. Maybe something was done." Clide also added so we went to where that scream came from. We can see those gathered there who are still laughing at what is happening/watching them. The four of us huddled together until we got to the front and saw Ceah and his friends throwing paint at a woman. What the fvck is she doing to that girl?! I don't see their faces very well but one thing is i know. It's like they are helping the woman to apply paint. Argh that's a problem!"Can we wean? Poor woman oh." Clide asked us so we turned around except for Hanz who was just standing and watching Ceah."hey stop!!" I shouted authoritatively so Ceah stopped what they were doing and looked at us."ohh? You're here?" Ceah said when she faced us. She's all smiles as if she's laughing at what she's doing. A lot of paint was also put on his whole body."What are you doing Ceah?! Why are you helping that girl?" Cloud asked seriously."look at your self! It's full of paint! Aren't you ashamed?!" Clide also shouted at Ceah."Why should I be ashamed if I'm having fun doing what I'm doing?" Ceah also asked Clide again.Is she having fun? Is he happy that the girl is single? Thank you"You're having fun helping that girl?! Don't you feel sorry for that? One against the three of you?" Clide asked again. I looked at the woman who was now crouching next to Ceah.Ceah smirked, making her even more annoyed."yeah, we're helping her. But pity? Why should we be pitied, we're not doing anything wrong pfft." replied Ceah, still holding back his laughter. While the woman was just standing by their side, Ceah and Ceah's friends were also just standing.I was going to speak before Ceah went ahead."If you don't have anything else to say and if you're really just ruining our fun... We'll go ahead of you. We'll clean ourselves. We already have a lot of paint on our bodies and faces pft." said Ceah and she faced the girl they were working with earlier."ohh face right coloring book pft." Ceah said to the woman while holding back her laughter."You too! Pft HAHA" replied the laughing woman... Also?"BWAHAHA all of us! Tanks!" Lixa also said...